When I was really young there were a few really awesome summers. They were right after the time in life when you always need to be supervised (lest you have a water-gun fight in the house,) but right before the time when you need to get a job. I remember one time Cody and I went for a walk on what was probably the hottest day of the year in Altona forest. We walked around the whole thing and when we got back we bought two bottles of Tahiti Treat and slammed them faster than I think I’ve ever drank a carbonated beverage. Typing it out doesn’t make it sound all that glamorous, but I don’t think any amount of description would be able to convey my fondness of that memory. There really is nothing I love more than feeling the sun on your face on a hot day, the smell of the earth and the smell of forests in southern Ontario.
Those were the summers of Halo-thons, feasts, neighbors bringing their Nieces from Europe and just a general feeling of near constant happiness. Those really were the good old days, but in retrospect, I’d never go back.
A few days ago I got home to my apartment after work and I thought to my self, “you know whats still pretty awesome? Living on my own.” I spend most of my money on food, rent and transportation but I’m not sure how I could describe how different I feel. (but then again maybe I’m just really bad at describing my feelings.) The feeling of walking in through your own door and sitting down in your own chair and eating a good meal that you prepared is so immensely gratifying. Moving out has fostered a strong sense of independence in me and I think it was something I really needed to be a happy person.
Sometimes it all still feels so surreal though, I’ve been living on my own for the better half of a year and things still feel so different, its like I left to go on a vacation got a really awesome hotel room and never came back. Its not just living on my own that makes things surreal either, its everything else that seems to be going on in my life. My sister is getting married next year and even I’m getting hyped up for the wedding (I’ve never in my life been excited by the prospect of a religious ceremony). I’m also in a pretty serious relationship too, I wouldn’t say that I’m going to be getting hitched any time soon, but, I’m exactly where I want to be right now.
When I was young I always just thought something was going to click in my mind and then I’d be like “Oh, I see that as of this moment I am an adult. What a splendid occurrence.” I guess were all just like frogs in hot water though, becoming aware a gradual change is so hard to detect. Being a kid was great but the freedom wasn’t really limitless. As I write this I’m ready to go out to a concert with my girlfriend and one of my best friends and tomorrow we’re just going to sleep in and watch TV, out of all the possibilities I could conjure, I’m not sure I could imagine a better way to spend my time.
Occasionally when I meet new people they will ask what I do, I think instead of telling them that I fix computers I’ll tell them that I’m just enjoying life.
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